I will have to admit at this early point that I'm feeling rather unstable. No need for concern or anything, it's a perfect mood for me to be creative and work on something with a little more depth, or to come up with something a little more dark for my horror than I would normally write. By unstable I kind of just mean that I'm not sure what mood I'm in, it's all a little bit odd off odd something like that. It's just me, I say as I give a mental shrug. I really have no explanation for it - but I'm fairly certain everyone must go through these strange little moods. I'd like to think I'm not the only one anyway. But yeah - that's a quallifier for anything I say in the next 26 minutes that might be slightly odd or dark or whatnot. Though that being said I'm likely to lighten up as my thoughts spring from idea to idea - so who knows what might happen? Ehh... Not me, that's for sure.
I'm answering my own rhetorical questions - good start!
I'll give somewhat of a reason why I decided to be in this mood and delve so far into my brain. I've been watching Black Mirror, all three episodes. They're on 4oD at the moment, written by Charlie Brooker and they're pretty awesome. The first two are especially annoying cause they're the kind of thing I'd love to be able to write myself - so I see them and I'm all like 'well I'm never gonna do something that awesome' - But that does seem to be what a lot of people think. So far most of my stuff has been liked more than I think it is good.
Being a writer kind of has two contrasting ideas in this perspective - on the one hand, you're writing what you want to read, and when you have a memory as awful as mine that becomes quite cool because every couple of months you can re-read your own shit like: 'Oooh! I wonder what will happen next.' - and you kind of enjoy your own work. But there's also the repetition, especially after you've spent a long period of time actually writing the piece where your enthusiasm for the story wanes and you really start to lack confidence in that it's a remotely good story. Which gives you a lift when people say they really like it - because to you, it really isn't half as good as the rest of the stuff out there.
But... I like to think I'm pretty good at it and I want to try to get one of my new stories done, really so I might have a huge session on beasting one of my stories, if only to get the first draft done - because then comes the tedious and equally fun editing process, which is more than half the work of a good writing.
I suppose I should be in a good mood with my writing though, one of my worse poems got chosen in 10th place today in a competition of over 500 entries. So that's not half bad as a position to come. This was on one of my writing websites, so it was judged by an amateur - but that's still okay, I think. To be fair when I ask for feedback most people tell me they can't give their thoughts because they don't know anything about writing - but that's really not the point. The most important feedback you get is from people who haven't got a clue about the process or whatever, because they make the majority of your readers, and if someone without any know-how can tell you something is off about one of your pieces - then something is bloody well off with one of your pieces, and that is invaluable information.
I guess this isn't the most interesting blog to read of these 30 minute thoughts, and for that I appologise, but I did qualify the reason at the start, so try not to let it put you off. The end product I've been brain storming and I have some nice ideas. Though it turns into one of those things within a thing at the point where on the video I talk about ideas for the video and so on. How weird. People have been wrongly calling things-within-a-thing situations something '-ception' recently just because of the balls movie Inception, that was so simple they ruined the film with extra dialogue explaining what was going on, and yet people still don't know what the word inception actually means? How little attention to people have to pay to a movie before shit like this becomes popular? It's like all the morons who bought fish to flush down the toilet after watching Finding Nemo. What are you people thinking? There's no wonder Hollywood films are so dumbed down and vague for the mass majority audience to like as oppose to being silling to be a skilled and appreciateive movie that would probably make less money but they can be proud of. Like making the Hobbit - which I have read and could be made into one hour and a half movies - dragging it out for 9 fucking hours. If that's not just utter crap money making bollocks, I don't know what is.
It just annoys me that gaming and film and all the rest - why can't people just enjoy their work for their work rather than the money margin. When you think about it, people will still go to watch movies just as much, but the money would be more spread out and the movies would be on a higher standard. I don't really know what I'm suggesting they do - as if I'm suggesting everything. I just wish people realised it's their own stupidity that makes things so crap. If you buy something or put money into something, the company will do more of the same thing, rather than coming up with something new and taking more risks. Don't fund these bell-ends, it's not worth it.
Also, don't buy anything to do with music where over 90% of the profits goes to the actual artist. Fuck the music industry, people claim they do good for musicians, but all they really do is tell us what we want to hear and make sure that only select artists - irrelevant of the skill - get paid lower than minimum wage for their album sales. The only way musicians really make money is gigging. So the music industry is absolutely useless. We need more pirates, piracy helps bands. You get a hold of their music for free, realise you love it and then go and spend loads of money watching them live and on merch. But you make me pay to listen to music? I'm not gonna hear it, I remain ignorant and they get no money.
Sure that sounds like it's just me... but there is a hell of a lot of people who are happy to pirate out there, I'm willing to bet that over 50% of people who go to band's gigs own their music illegally. Are the bands in the sell-out gig suffering from that loss? Clearly not.
Just think it through.
I like the way this is turned into an artistic rant of points that I haven't really researched so at a later date will find out I'm completely wrong and appologise. But fuck it, this is my train of thought at the moment, and there's really not really any other forum I get this kind of crap off my chest. Though it's not really on my chest in the first place and it's more the kind of balls you tend to hear in a pub from the overly boisterous friend who only pipes up after his 4th pint just to disagree with people. I hope I'm not that guy... I like to make jokes for the first 3 pints at least. Ah well.
The pub is an awesome place for voicing anything you like, only the best philosophy in the world comes about from a pub - conversation. Although it kind of needs to be informed slightly, two people who know nothing of philosophical history are mroe likely talking of ideas that are pretty standard and thinking it's more meaningful. That's one of the issues with philosophy - there are a lot of people who think it's just common sense dressed up. But it is only common sense because philosophy made it common sense. This shit wasn't common knowledge until philosophers pointed it out, wrote a book and had a slow uptake on their book until a hundred years after they were dead. That's why philosophy cannot die, what we're coming up with today, is the common sense of a hundred years time.
Perhaps I'm overstepping my mark by saying I'm a part of this. And yes, I'm well aware I sound like I think I'm cleverer than I am. But that's not the point. The point is that at least I am thinking - whether I'm a dick for doing it or not. We just need people to savvy up and eventually, if everything happens in these kinds of ways - maybe there'll be a world I'm much more happy to live in. Because that's essentially what it's all about. I'm me, and therefore the most important person in my life and therefore I want the world to revolve around me. Yes, that sounds perfectly legit.
(For all the people that don't know me very well, that last paragraph was generally satirical, I'm taking the piss out of myself in a characterised way, a kind of reputation that I build for myself accidentally. It wasn't serious. Thanks for reading - by the way. Much appreciate your attention.)
So this morning I was running out of food and couldn't be bothered with soup - so I actually had a spaghetti and meatballs for my breakfast - how crazy is that? I'm probably not gonna be eating much for the rest of today where I be all in the same mood as I have done throughout this and tomorrow I'll likely be really happy and stuff and look back on this post like: 'What a dick!' Ciao for now.
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