Okay, this is day two of this little experiment thingy. Shit, panic. Um, right I do agree with random consensus yesterday that the first 30 min thoughts (which I was considering being a pilot and having this as official number 1 but then realised I couldn't be bothered with that :D) was a little bit tame. Like, there wasn't much offensiveness or sex as they might have been expecting - which like 3 or 4 people were expecting. I'm starting to think these people don't know me at all.
But actually it's a fair thought that it wasn't so controversial, because what you have to remember is this isn't my actual inner thoughts it's me forcing my self to write continiously... and so that means that I'm constantly panicing of what to say next, my thoughts go quicker than I can type so it's really whatever comes to my mind when forced. And actually, as much as people like to think I am racist or sexist or generally offensive, either because I am Cornish or you've just spent time with me, well I can't say it's genuine as much as a sense of humour. Which I'm sorry to disappoint. Still, what is also important to bear in mind is purely that this is a one sided conversation - there is nothing to discuss, the feedback is not immediate. So there's nothing to say about offensiveness or sex. I mean when something like sex is discussed it's because you feed off the other person or are sharing your thoughts / concerns / funny stories or whatever... but here? I have nothing to go by. I could tell you the story of how I once had sex with a wire around my neck, standing on my head on a skateboard on a swing - but that story just isn't true.
Thing being I can't really figure out hilarious stories around that area to a general thoughts type setting - and at the moment I kind of am really trying to think of something. Meh. I get a little annoied at the whole idea that we should be going out and dipping our wick every other day and stuff - and the assumption that if you don't talk about it it's not happening. Turns out there is such a thing as descrecion . Just because I don't talk about it... y'know. I had a friend the other day tell me how I should 'go out more to stick my dick in girls' and basically - no. Because I go out more than that person anyway, and I kind of have fun with friends, y'know friendship? Despite the assumptions he was making about me. Silly naieve boy. There is a hope problem with people not knowing there is such a thing as emotional intelligence - and I look down on every person doing a science degree from the word go because they think they're clever, but without emotional intelligence, you lack the kind of worldly common sense that makes you any more than a bloody calculator type information spitting thing. Then there's the people who I actually meet and show they're not like that. But still, I'll refrain from my usual philosophy rant - just putting in that if you want to take the piss out of someone who does philosophy, you are basically a moron by emotional intelligence definition. So have fun with that.
Kind of is the same point of people's lacking sense. I did have a point I was going to make about people making assumptions about my life, but I've totally forgot. Still I'm always glad when certain people stop talking to me, because sometimes it's an effort to have to be around them. It's the whole friendship control thing again - but nothing annoys me more (that's a lie, a lot of stuff annoys me) than people who assume they know you or assume that the way they live their life is the correct way - anyone you can't understand is weird and anything you don't see happen doesn't happen at all. Please open your god-damn mind. I admit my mind is all I have, but I like to expect a certain amount of other people to use theirs properly - and by a certain amount I mean 100%. I probably can't expect that of some people in the population like the Jeremy Kyle type people of society, but I am blessed with not having to know them. So I'm okay with this.
Starving Africans I guess I'll let them off too. I mean they have other things to worry about that application of real knowledge. Although if they were a little bit more savvy about biology - perhaps it'd significantly reduce the spread of AIDs and save some lives. Rapists, I dislike rapists - even if you think there's a reason for it.
I guess what makes sense as well, going back to my thing about not having much of the thoughts about sex. Something I've never been able to fathom is rape, because the pleasure from sex is such a little thing - how is it possible to crave or desire that feeling so much to physically ruin someone's entire life up, traumatize and destroy people's self-worth and confidence. It's like they haven't even thought it through - the cunts. haha, I like the idea I said how tame I was, as if I'm going to be controversial - but it turns out I just dislike rapists. I don't think that's much of a controversial point. Though pretty much all other things can be justified in morality I figured out last year. You name an act aside from peadophillia or rape (and peadophillia is a kind of rape anyway) and it can be justified, given that some can only be justified by situational points. But in no situation could you ever really justify rape. Which I should probably stop talking about... Might be giving someone an uncomfortable read. Sorry about that.
Anyway, fuck I'm thirsty - should have got a drink before I started this. But yeah, not doing too much today, just been sitting around in my pants and eating sausage rolls. Which isn't too bad a way to spend some time. Might crack open the rum later and write some more of my horror story. But I shouldn;t bother planning shit cause I never reall do it. Plans tend to change... But meh, Game of Thrones is on tonight which U'm uber excited about cause I've waited a fucking long time, as has everyone else. But I'm not really sure what to think about it, I rewatched the previous seasons and it's not like there is loads of questions, just lots of events that you're looking forward to continuing. And I have to say that aside from Tyrion Lannister, I'm backing John Snow - as conventional as it is, I think he has a long way to go.
There's been a good few TV series on lately, but nothing I've been overly impressed with aside from Utopia - which doesn't seem like it'll be good but it was bloody well amazing, the acting and the artistry and the writing, I just have to give it both thumbs up to watch. I was getting pissed off with The Voice earlier because you could make that an hour long show and just show more of the contestants but instead they make it out to be the most epic thing ever - just like X Factor and the other one. When I kind of like The Voice because it's actually a judge of talent rather than the other bollocks which is all about the TV show and making money from being characters and shit. So to build it up with all the crap intros and have interviews between every act spinning some shit story that has nothing to do with singing and then some more promos of how wacking the Will.I.Am is when he just wasn't accepted in his own country so somehow he thinks he fits in here. And you just get crappy things with them explaining the premise of the show like 900 times. It's an hour and a half. There is only 30 minutes of good stuff in it. Honestly, what a pile of wabble-cox.
I don't even know what that meant, but y'know how it is in this day and age. I think I'm kind of angry today - I have no real reason to be angry - but maybe I should leave the house tomorrow or something, I've spent almost 4 days in solitude now and that's probably enough before I should do something. Might as Woody for a drink. Or, haha, I might make Woody read this entire post just so in the last three minutes of writing I'm asking if he wants to go for a drink soon. Hey Woody (the rest of you can ignore this bit. I say 'the rest' as if there's more than 2 people got this far) Hey Woody, fancy going for a drink tomorrow? Or perhaps Wednesday?
Well wasn't that exciting. I was right though, when I typed that I had 3 minutes left I looked at the clock and there was like 2 minutes 47 seconds left which means I should wrap this up which I'm kind happy about because I'm needlessly angry my arms are starting to hurt from this constant typing and I'm generally really thirsty. So, by the way I've kind of coined my own farewell for my posts and stuff where I just say 'Ciao for now' because I think it sounds so smug and dickish, it's playful and great. So yeah, I'll probably be putting that at the end of all of these little posts, and try to write less about actually writing too - because it takes up valuable bull-shit time. Anyway. Ciao for now!
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