Hai there! This is the seventh and final 30 minute thoughts writing experiment which means I really need to quickly learn how to properly edit a Vlog. Because that's the next step. I think it might take a few days before I get to recording it, I'll be posting up more than one video, probably one a day for about four to five days so that I have something to work with and people can watch me going 'Oh, this guy is mildly funny and different to most people I know, I might watch another video of his just to confirm my dislike for him. And then they do confirm it, but a week later my name niggles in the back of their mind and they can't help but watch more of my videos and then they read my writing and becomes obsess with the strange feeling that they shouldn't like me and they can't help but be all over everything I do and then they get really creepy and find out where I live and send me dirty knickers and lockets of my own hair in the post. I dunno why he's doing that, being a man and everything.
But that's the dream anyway, feeling threatened to death by the only person in the world that enjoys the things I do. Someone did say something like that before, about doing stuff for yourself and if only one other person likes it in the world, you're a success. But I really don't consider that success as oppose to increasing the enjoyment of the world from your stuff by literally double (you and the other person) which sounds a lot... but it's crap. Unless you end up falling in love with that person and having lots of children who have lots of grand-children who remember you and then that's mildly successful to such a normal standard. But I'm not happy with that - I need to be a household name in three thousand years - because that's success.
I find it weird to think that population growth gets repeatedly faster as time goes on (because growth in population by definition increases growth rate - think about it) but at the same time we have really strict health and safety and huge areas of science trying to increase your life expectancy. Which would suck, because when people stop dying, the population growth goes crazy an we become crowded in every place in the world and then science slows down because of crappy conditions, people live in more primitive areas, and smaller tribal communities, some tragedy happens affecting the climate of the world over night and we slowly devolve our intelligence because it's not as useful to us compared to a more complex digestive system for higher survival. This doesn't sound good at all...
I'm not suggesting we slowly kill people off. But surely there's a system that doesn't affect the world too much and is humane just to start saving our planet. Because it's either very quickly learn how to travel through large areas of space and colonize another planet, or just a universal three children limit before sterilization? I mean any more than three is just greedy, and many many people are happy with just one. But we don't generally end up with the problems that China has with illegal abortions 'n crap. I dunno, I don't think it'd be too bad. And before anyone starts thinking I'm some sort of cold hearted twat - I'm actually a libertarian, just trying to be logical.
But I had a really awesome idea about this actually that I might use in a story, that it's a stupid idea telling you because I don't really want anyone to steal the idea. But at the end of the day, it's not really an idea that isn't out there already. But surely as technology advances, we fight lighter ways to gave stronger armour, we're inventing nano-bots and smart computers in the form of glasses etc. we're gaining this elite sci-fi kind of soldier. Now, at least they're not genome soldiers, cause that adds the the population control. But if we're essentially making invincible soldiers to go into battle - when both sides have these, war is pointless because outcomes become bizarre and non-fighting, so countries and dictator bastards would have to find other ways to mass murder other people than their own. I dunno, rock, paper & scissors for the land or something.
But then we've spent so much money on making soldiers invincible to the point that they don't need to be invincible because war becomes pointless. The only real point of war is to try to kill as many people as possible to make your main objectives for a takeover possible - or if you're on the good side it's to try to take out the least amount of people possible to do the same. (Because life has good and bad, kind of. But not in the TV story sense where 'means to an end' is bad, but 'acts in themselves' are good.) It's just a bit silly I think.
What I do find funny though is that I almost mistyped 'kill' as 'kiss' in that last bit. So the idea of war is to kiss as many people as possible to make your main objectives possible. Now that would be an interesting war. Maybe that's what it turns into when all the soldiers become invincible, nobody can kill each other so they all just have a massive orgy on the 'battle-field' and the last person to orgasm wins the war for their side? Or something like that... Hey, it's by far a fantastic reason to recruit more female soldiers! (if you get what I mean) - thank you, I'm, here all week.
To be honest, I'm probably not the right kind of person to be talking about war itself, if you didn't notice I'm not really very fond of it and as a result have little interest in actual war and probably have absolutely the wrong idea about it - but I do know a couple of things. I know I hold empathy for the situations of people who become involved in wars, especially throughout history when war was a much more bloody and head on collision kind of thing. You've got to pay heed to all the insignificant people who make up the population - they're the ones being fought for, because people are people, whether they're changed or smart or interesting or not; everyone has a story. I also know that people are going to go to war no matter what. People will also start wars, people will always fight - and it's because we're not just animals, but we're animals with reason. So we have desires and those desires boil down to animalistic crap about power and things like that. It's why I disreguard anyone saying anything is because because it leads to war (Such as religion), because it's not the cause to war really, It's a means to war. If religion wasn't there people would find other reasons to fight, probably not the same people as they are now because of religion, but there would still be wards from other means. That goes for land acquisition or resources or everything - there's always be a way for people in totality (no matter who they are) to have a massive contest to see who is 'better'.
So yeah, today the sun is shining and I'm feeling quite optimistic and everything and I think I've learned how to do these little posts because this random crap I've been talking about today is the ideal of what I wanted to come out of these posts. And it's only taken me 6 previous posts to figure it out. Wow, aren't I clever. I'll post a conclusion on my main blog about what I think came from this experiment and I'll get working on the video as soon as I have motivation to. So that's all the admin stuff covered. I'm in a decent mood to work on my stories today as well, I think I'll set myself a thousand word goal for the rest of today, because I know I can manage that - especially if I just write quickly and lack efficiency just like I do in these little posts. Okay then, ciao for now!
Saturday, 6 April 2013
Friday, 5 April 2013
30 Minute Thoughts Day 6
Hello people! I left this one kind of late purely because I couldn't really be bothered to do it today. Given that if I was just challenging myself to writing every day I probably would have given up today and lost. But seeing as I've said I'm doing this for a week and people actually read this - I kind of have to putt through, which I guess is a good thing. So yeah, perhaps it's not so hard to force yourself to write something - but who really has the motivation to start stuff these days, really? Ah well.
I got into the beta testing for FF14 yesterday and I managed to play it today. It's actually really quite good and if I had the time or money I would definitely play it. But I don't - So I really can't. Still, it's cool I was picked for the beta, probably something to do with the fact I've played so many FF games. I still need to re-play a lot of them though.
Yesterday I played Risk but Lord of the Rings version - so it's just risk in Middle Earth, basically. And it was quite fun but I realised I'm not very good because I was nice to Woody while playing and then he pulled his troops back and practically almost beat me. My only saving grace was my little friend Steve who held a single position on the map and didn't move - but he defended it against 29 other battalions of troops. 29! He was a legend, properly unbeatable. Until he was beaten by Ben, of course. The same guy present on my traumatic circus trip for my 20th birthday. It's like he follows around the worst moments in my life. I wanted Steve to do better. Sad times... I have some video of the game and there are some pictures. I might flick through it and possibly actually make a video out of it - could be kinda fun.
Though I do have to admit that I was going to do more with Steve (not like that you dirty fuckers - it's a tiny plastic toy, how could you be so crude?) in the way of making him a Facebook page and a Twitter account. But I really can't be bothered to do that - posting every day just to see how many followers I could get with him. It's not really worth the effort methinks. Made for quite a funny game though despite absolutely failing from a very good starting position. Might play again sometime.
Of course I've run out of food too and can't be bothered to go to the shop to get more. Today I ended up having just a tin of spaghetti hoops on it's own for lunch. How depressing. But I'm just in such a lazy mood today, I can't really be bothered to get dressed or have a shower either - so it might not be best to go out in public just at this moment in time.
Overall I think it's been quite a success with my little writings and this blog and stuff - I'm not sure how confident I am gonna be with making videos, but it's been quite fun, it's something differeny. Though there are a few problems with this little experiment in particular. I don't really do anything topical, it's not too much of a problem but it made me realise a little bit how ignorant I am. I don't watch the news or anything I only watch the odd comedy panel show for the only information I get on things that have been happening. And topical stuff can be kind of interesting to read about - I could even make some jokes and things, because I'm funny really (please believe me!) I also realised it's kind of just devolving into me talking about what I've been doing, I go on a couple of tangents about my bigoted (but entirely correct) ideas about the world - but generally there's a lot of stuff like this little paragraph here that I can't really work with, but it's currently my line of thought so I have to write it down and it's the only thing I'm currently thinking to write down.
Of course my spelling and grammar I've realised I end up mildly correcting as I go, mostly spelling really there I'll spell a word wrong and delete what I've written to re-write it correct, which is kind of a cheating way from my original play, but it fits into the whole idea of personally training myself for writing discipline and stuff - also some misspelled words are just incomprehensible (I got that sentence right first go though, woo. And then I go and spell 'go' wrong. Oh golly gosh!)
I think it's kind of dull to be honest, when I'm in moods like this where I'm trying so hard but all I can think to write id how much I can't think of what to write. So I'm gonna have to change that for future episodes. Perhaps if I try this again in a future week I might write down a few 'go-to' prompts to get me rolling if I start to fail.
I also had an idea where I try to do this 30 minute thing but with an actual fictional writing - just write a story off the top of my head as I go without stopping and see how it turns out. Obviously it'll be horrible for me to read back, because writing is all about the editing. But it'd be cool to see if there was a good story rather than just a purple dragon called Dan.
Though a purple dragon called Dan is a story I'd probably give a quick skim read to be honest. Ah well. I'm thinking I might try to find and invest in a game of 'Booty' which is like a table-top game with cards that I played a pirate version of round my friend John's house once or twice. It was a really fun game and I'm pretty sure it'd lead to more nights like last night's little Risk game. We did try to add 'drinking rules' to the game, but it was so slow paced that we ended up scrapping them and drinking at our own rate. Which turned out was quicker than a drinking game. Either way it was a fairly casual type of drink. And considering everyone's buggered off home for Easter aside from, like, one other person - It's quite fun to actually do something social for a change. That being said, after I go shopping tomorrow I'm unlikely to be leaving the house again for about a week. Gives me time to catch up on all the reading / gaming and writing that I've put upon myself to do.
I actually have 12 books lined up at the moment, and then I have friends recommending more and I'm like 'Nooo!' but I might do if I run out of stuff. My reading pace has sped up quite a lot since I got my Kindle because reading seems simpler to carry on and get lost in the story so I've read more than I would have otherwise resulting in my quickening of reading. I'm a pretty slow reader too, by the way. Most of the books I have still to read at the moment though are horror books, and I've got a couple of random ones that I'm working through at random slow paces inbetween other books like Hitchhikers guide to the Galaxy and Cloud Atlas. Which reminds me that I didn't go to my last creative writing lecture of this uni year, so I didn't say bye to all the people who definitely weren't my friends. And I'm not carrying it on so, that was a strange experience. They were all dull as fuck, as well. They just didn't get a 'dry sense of humour' at all. Considering they're supposed to be able to know a lot about people to write good characters, they really had no idea. I tried to make a few dry jokes at the start of the year, and the teacher was just mentally quirky enough to believe I was telling the truth. It was kinda awkward, so the whole class didn't really speak to me much because they all thought I was just this clever smug person with weird opinions from the year above them (because I took a first year module instead of this year - purely because I wasn't interesting in any other singular module in the entire university. Just goes to show my academic interests...) So yeah, that wasn't very fun. But it's over now and they can stop trying to make me write in ways that I literally have no interest in using ever again - so I can peruse my own style and things. That being said, it still needs to be honed. I need to be a 1 in 1000 kind of writer if I want any chance of getting an agent and therefore publisher to get my amazingly entertaining and brilliantly written books into the world. And if that never happens - well everyone else is wrong for thinking I'm not good enough... because I am I definitely am. (This is the kind of dry joke I would make in class, it needs to be taken at least a little tongue in cheek, given. But in speach it's not hard to notice... Gah! Morons.) I've been putting a lot of random stuff in brackets today. I dunno what that means but time is up so ciao for now!
I got into the beta testing for FF14 yesterday and I managed to play it today. It's actually really quite good and if I had the time or money I would definitely play it. But I don't - So I really can't. Still, it's cool I was picked for the beta, probably something to do with the fact I've played so many FF games. I still need to re-play a lot of them though.
Yesterday I played Risk but Lord of the Rings version - so it's just risk in Middle Earth, basically. And it was quite fun but I realised I'm not very good because I was nice to Woody while playing and then he pulled his troops back and practically almost beat me. My only saving grace was my little friend Steve who held a single position on the map and didn't move - but he defended it against 29 other battalions of troops. 29! He was a legend, properly unbeatable. Until he was beaten by Ben, of course. The same guy present on my traumatic circus trip for my 20th birthday. It's like he follows around the worst moments in my life. I wanted Steve to do better. Sad times... I have some video of the game and there are some pictures. I might flick through it and possibly actually make a video out of it - could be kinda fun.
Though I do have to admit that I was going to do more with Steve (not like that you dirty fuckers - it's a tiny plastic toy, how could you be so crude?) in the way of making him a Facebook page and a Twitter account. But I really can't be bothered to do that - posting every day just to see how many followers I could get with him. It's not really worth the effort methinks. Made for quite a funny game though despite absolutely failing from a very good starting position. Might play again sometime.
Of course I've run out of food too and can't be bothered to go to the shop to get more. Today I ended up having just a tin of spaghetti hoops on it's own for lunch. How depressing. But I'm just in such a lazy mood today, I can't really be bothered to get dressed or have a shower either - so it might not be best to go out in public just at this moment in time.
Overall I think it's been quite a success with my little writings and this blog and stuff - I'm not sure how confident I am gonna be with making videos, but it's been quite fun, it's something differeny. Though there are a few problems with this little experiment in particular. I don't really do anything topical, it's not too much of a problem but it made me realise a little bit how ignorant I am. I don't watch the news or anything I only watch the odd comedy panel show for the only information I get on things that have been happening. And topical stuff can be kind of interesting to read about - I could even make some jokes and things, because I'm funny really (please believe me!) I also realised it's kind of just devolving into me talking about what I've been doing, I go on a couple of tangents about my bigoted (but entirely correct) ideas about the world - but generally there's a lot of stuff like this little paragraph here that I can't really work with, but it's currently my line of thought so I have to write it down and it's the only thing I'm currently thinking to write down.
Of course my spelling and grammar I've realised I end up mildly correcting as I go, mostly spelling really there I'll spell a word wrong and delete what I've written to re-write it correct, which is kind of a cheating way from my original play, but it fits into the whole idea of personally training myself for writing discipline and stuff - also some misspelled words are just incomprehensible (I got that sentence right first go though, woo. And then I go and spell 'go' wrong. Oh golly gosh!)
I think it's kind of dull to be honest, when I'm in moods like this where I'm trying so hard but all I can think to write id how much I can't think of what to write. So I'm gonna have to change that for future episodes. Perhaps if I try this again in a future week I might write down a few 'go-to' prompts to get me rolling if I start to fail.
I also had an idea where I try to do this 30 minute thing but with an actual fictional writing - just write a story off the top of my head as I go without stopping and see how it turns out. Obviously it'll be horrible for me to read back, because writing is all about the editing. But it'd be cool to see if there was a good story rather than just a purple dragon called Dan.
Though a purple dragon called Dan is a story I'd probably give a quick skim read to be honest. Ah well. I'm thinking I might try to find and invest in a game of 'Booty' which is like a table-top game with cards that I played a pirate version of round my friend John's house once or twice. It was a really fun game and I'm pretty sure it'd lead to more nights like last night's little Risk game. We did try to add 'drinking rules' to the game, but it was so slow paced that we ended up scrapping them and drinking at our own rate. Which turned out was quicker than a drinking game. Either way it was a fairly casual type of drink. And considering everyone's buggered off home for Easter aside from, like, one other person - It's quite fun to actually do something social for a change. That being said, after I go shopping tomorrow I'm unlikely to be leaving the house again for about a week. Gives me time to catch up on all the reading / gaming and writing that I've put upon myself to do.
I actually have 12 books lined up at the moment, and then I have friends recommending more and I'm like 'Nooo!' but I might do if I run out of stuff. My reading pace has sped up quite a lot since I got my Kindle because reading seems simpler to carry on and get lost in the story so I've read more than I would have otherwise resulting in my quickening of reading. I'm a pretty slow reader too, by the way. Most of the books I have still to read at the moment though are horror books, and I've got a couple of random ones that I'm working through at random slow paces inbetween other books like Hitchhikers guide to the Galaxy and Cloud Atlas. Which reminds me that I didn't go to my last creative writing lecture of this uni year, so I didn't say bye to all the people who definitely weren't my friends. And I'm not carrying it on so, that was a strange experience. They were all dull as fuck, as well. They just didn't get a 'dry sense of humour' at all. Considering they're supposed to be able to know a lot about people to write good characters, they really had no idea. I tried to make a few dry jokes at the start of the year, and the teacher was just mentally quirky enough to believe I was telling the truth. It was kinda awkward, so the whole class didn't really speak to me much because they all thought I was just this clever smug person with weird opinions from the year above them (because I took a first year module instead of this year - purely because I wasn't interesting in any other singular module in the entire university. Just goes to show my academic interests...) So yeah, that wasn't very fun. But it's over now and they can stop trying to make me write in ways that I literally have no interest in using ever again - so I can peruse my own style and things. That being said, it still needs to be honed. I need to be a 1 in 1000 kind of writer if I want any chance of getting an agent and therefore publisher to get my amazingly entertaining and brilliantly written books into the world. And if that never happens - well everyone else is wrong for thinking I'm not good enough... because I am I definitely am. (This is the kind of dry joke I would make in class, it needs to be taken at least a little tongue in cheek, given. But in speach it's not hard to notice... Gah! Morons.) I've been putting a lot of random stuff in brackets today. I dunno what that means but time is up so ciao for now!
Thursday, 4 April 2013
30 Minute Thoughts Day 5
I wasn't going to write this so early on today, however I just got an e-main through saying that I've been chosen as a beta tester for the new-release of Final Fantasy XIV and that's going to be awesome. it's a lot of gigs to install all at once, so I figured I'd kill the time by doing my obligatory writing for the day. I'm kind of hoping FF14 will be good, to be honest considering how awful it was the first time round with all it's bugs and stuff - however if it is awesome and I enjoy the Beta, I know I won't have enough money to pay the subscription to play it properly - nor have nearly enough friends who will join me. So that's a little bit annoyng to know there's a great game that I can't play. By the way, if you're unaware FF14 is a fantasy MMORPG, it's almost a changed version of their last online Final Fantast which was XI or 11. And that was like one of the best MMOs ever, although many people didn't really give it a chance.
One of the best things about it as a game was the fact that it had the nicest communities of any online game I've ever played. I mean people that I know play Halo and CoD and complain about the 12 year olds who just call you gay and insult your mum when they can't do anything properly because they suck and they think this is a bad community. But I've played League of Legends and wow - there are some right proper pricks on that damn game.
Final Fantasy online versions tend to be of a much bigger scale and more friendly atmostphere because how complex the game is wittles out all the pathetic players who can't muster the ability to play a game that requires you to think more than point and shoot. So while there will always be a few odd-balls in online games, the overall community is really nice, they're uber helpful to new players and that's kind of cool.
League of Legends, being a MMOBA, (you can google these terms / games if you have no idea what I'm talking about) is a horrible community purely for one reason - it is hugely based on skill. And when you're anonymous you really need not to have your ego pounded, so in an effort to keep some dignity, you blame and insult everyone ... thus losing all of your dignity. I still keep up with League, but I can't muster the strength to play it, because while it is a really good game - it's not worth the stress of being absolutely abused by players who are clearly worse than you or just downright pricks. The cool think about League though is it is a sport. So I can kick back and just watch the championship series when they're on and not play - the same as watching rugby or football and not playing. So it works in the same sense.
I'd like to see some other games becomes e-sports to be fair, so there's more of a range of watchable games, but that's a really hard system. I mean most based based on battle arenas like League all seem to have pretty much the same type of map layout - so while there are certain variables, they're too similar to really watch them all with interest, you need your allegiance to one - as it were.
I've just realised how I shouldn't have bothered making a cup of tea before writing this because I wont really be able to stop long enough to drink it before it's cold. Probably. Actually, I don't know the exact time before a cup of tea becomes too cold for me so it might be fine.
I am quite proud of me though, I managed to order a chinese over the phone on my own yesterday. Which is horrible for me because I get really really nervous over the phone for some reason, I dunno why but I don't like it at all. It's just irrational. But I mustered the courage and it was almost successful, however, because I was ordering for myself I felt really awkward about ordering so little so I ended up buying far more than I could possibly eat. How ridicules! I had to throw away a bag of onion rings because they were horrible and I couldn't eat them when they'd got cold. Ignoring the fact that I ate so much I couldn't physically stand at the time. I gorged like a king. Can't say it was too much of an issue, I tasted fucking delish!
So yaaaaa, I really actually am lost for things to write at the moment, my brain just isn't working. I'm quite worried about yesterday's post to be honest, I mean it's part of the experiment that i have to post whatever I write, but I really was in a strange mood and was arguing and having a go at things that really shouldn't get me that riled up. It was quite a dark moment - so not idea for a situation where you're posting for literally anyone to read your thoughts. But I guess it wasn't as bad as it could have been, it's just uncomfortable for me. I did go for that drink with Woody as well as I proposed in the day 2 post. And... Umm, other things have happened, I guess. I'm genuinely quite stuck for things to say - c'mon, Kyle, this is dull reading you absolute bleedy fekin' sodder! ABSOLUTE CAROUSEL FOR THE EYE.
Ah, that's one of my biggest annoyances in writing, actually. People who put stuff in all caps, I can understand how in a casual context it's the easiest way to emphasise a point. But it's just grammatically incorrect. Capitals can only be used in certain places, if you can't get across that you're shouting via the text itself - well you need to just practice some more on your descriptions, at least. I often use 'you're' instead of 'your' now and therefore doing the opposite of my bugbear because I really dislike people using the wrong you, but because I'm so against it, when touch typing 'you're' is my go to one, so I sometimes mess that up. Oh! And 'could of' in stead of 'could have' that really annoys me... people like: 'Oh that should of worked' I'm like 'Noooooo!' my Kryptonite has hit the bottoms of my heart!
Of course I see this kind of thing on some of the Writers' websites I'm on and it's usually by the amatuerish people who you can tell wont be able to accept criticism properly, so if you have something negative to say you have to sandwich it in praise for their story - even if it sucks - that's kind of the reason I don't bother reviewing if I don't think I can do it honestly, these days. It's not really worth my time trying to honestly give constructive criticism to people who suck but can't accept anyone saying anything other than what they're doing is amazing! You can't really become a good writer if you can't accept someone telling you exactly why what you're written sucks, if it sucks. Or at least that there is something wrong about it. There's been so many times I've written out loads of information to people being really nice about how I think they could have improve and they just delete the comment straight away because they can't handle it. And that's why I consider myself slightly above amateur level of writing.
Still, there's no pleasing everyone... By the way, when I said 'absolute carousel for the eye' in capitals, I'm well away there is only about 3 people in my entire friends bag (yes, I have a friend bag... Wait, what?) that will actually understand that - but take it from me, those specific people will find that sentence, bloody hilarious. I keep wanting to suggest that it's only freinds or people close in relation that read these, but because of my facebook and andvertising like a shameless whore, I've actually found that there are others who have been reading these too - and I really appreciate you, as well. Thank you honestly, I don't know why you read - but you do and that's what counts. So yeah, all the interests. I'm kind of looking forward to making the video about these things, to be fair, but I'm kind of nervous as well - because I hate having to edit myself with my voice and face being all me... It's odd. So mixed feeling about that.
I have a few friends who seem to be wanting to make videos at around this same time though too - so good luck to them, I'm sure we'll stay in touch because of it and stuff. It's kinda cool. But as I say, for me it's all about the writing, the writing is the important part, the videos are just a bit of fun. So I thank you all dearly for reading. I think I get around 30 views on and off, on average, on each of these posts, which is three times more than I even expected / wished for. So you're all a bit weird to be honest, but thanks-a-plenty. Ciao for now!
One of the best things about it as a game was the fact that it had the nicest communities of any online game I've ever played. I mean people that I know play Halo and CoD and complain about the 12 year olds who just call you gay and insult your mum when they can't do anything properly because they suck and they think this is a bad community. But I've played League of Legends and wow - there are some right proper pricks on that damn game.
Final Fantasy online versions tend to be of a much bigger scale and more friendly atmostphere because how complex the game is wittles out all the pathetic players who can't muster the ability to play a game that requires you to think more than point and shoot. So while there will always be a few odd-balls in online games, the overall community is really nice, they're uber helpful to new players and that's kind of cool.
League of Legends, being a MMOBA, (you can google these terms / games if you have no idea what I'm talking about) is a horrible community purely for one reason - it is hugely based on skill. And when you're anonymous you really need not to have your ego pounded, so in an effort to keep some dignity, you blame and insult everyone ... thus losing all of your dignity. I still keep up with League, but I can't muster the strength to play it, because while it is a really good game - it's not worth the stress of being absolutely abused by players who are clearly worse than you or just downright pricks. The cool think about League though is it is a sport. So I can kick back and just watch the championship series when they're on and not play - the same as watching rugby or football and not playing. So it works in the same sense.
I'd like to see some other games becomes e-sports to be fair, so there's more of a range of watchable games, but that's a really hard system. I mean most based based on battle arenas like League all seem to have pretty much the same type of map layout - so while there are certain variables, they're too similar to really watch them all with interest, you need your allegiance to one - as it were.
I've just realised how I shouldn't have bothered making a cup of tea before writing this because I wont really be able to stop long enough to drink it before it's cold. Probably. Actually, I don't know the exact time before a cup of tea becomes too cold for me so it might be fine.
I am quite proud of me though, I managed to order a chinese over the phone on my own yesterday. Which is horrible for me because I get really really nervous over the phone for some reason, I dunno why but I don't like it at all. It's just irrational. But I mustered the courage and it was almost successful, however, because I was ordering for myself I felt really awkward about ordering so little so I ended up buying far more than I could possibly eat. How ridicules! I had to throw away a bag of onion rings because they were horrible and I couldn't eat them when they'd got cold. Ignoring the fact that I ate so much I couldn't physically stand at the time. I gorged like a king. Can't say it was too much of an issue, I tasted fucking delish!
So yaaaaa, I really actually am lost for things to write at the moment, my brain just isn't working. I'm quite worried about yesterday's post to be honest, I mean it's part of the experiment that i have to post whatever I write, but I really was in a strange mood and was arguing and having a go at things that really shouldn't get me that riled up. It was quite a dark moment - so not idea for a situation where you're posting for literally anyone to read your thoughts. But I guess it wasn't as bad as it could have been, it's just uncomfortable for me. I did go for that drink with Woody as well as I proposed in the day 2 post. And... Umm, other things have happened, I guess. I'm genuinely quite stuck for things to say - c'mon, Kyle, this is dull reading you absolute bleedy fekin' sodder! ABSOLUTE CAROUSEL FOR THE EYE.
Ah, that's one of my biggest annoyances in writing, actually. People who put stuff in all caps, I can understand how in a casual context it's the easiest way to emphasise a point. But it's just grammatically incorrect. Capitals can only be used in certain places, if you can't get across that you're shouting via the text itself - well you need to just practice some more on your descriptions, at least. I often use 'you're' instead of 'your' now and therefore doing the opposite of my bugbear because I really dislike people using the wrong you, but because I'm so against it, when touch typing 'you're' is my go to one, so I sometimes mess that up. Oh! And 'could of' in stead of 'could have' that really annoys me... people like: 'Oh that should of worked' I'm like 'Noooooo!' my Kryptonite has hit the bottoms of my heart!
Of course I see this kind of thing on some of the Writers' websites I'm on and it's usually by the amatuerish people who you can tell wont be able to accept criticism properly, so if you have something negative to say you have to sandwich it in praise for their story - even if it sucks - that's kind of the reason I don't bother reviewing if I don't think I can do it honestly, these days. It's not really worth my time trying to honestly give constructive criticism to people who suck but can't accept anyone saying anything other than what they're doing is amazing! You can't really become a good writer if you can't accept someone telling you exactly why what you're written sucks, if it sucks. Or at least that there is something wrong about it. There's been so many times I've written out loads of information to people being really nice about how I think they could have improve and they just delete the comment straight away because they can't handle it. And that's why I consider myself slightly above amateur level of writing.
Still, there's no pleasing everyone... By the way, when I said 'absolute carousel for the eye' in capitals, I'm well away there is only about 3 people in my entire friends bag (yes, I have a friend bag... Wait, what?) that will actually understand that - but take it from me, those specific people will find that sentence, bloody hilarious. I keep wanting to suggest that it's only freinds or people close in relation that read these, but because of my facebook and andvertising like a shameless whore, I've actually found that there are others who have been reading these too - and I really appreciate you, as well. Thank you honestly, I don't know why you read - but you do and that's what counts. So yeah, all the interests. I'm kind of looking forward to making the video about these things, to be fair, but I'm kind of nervous as well - because I hate having to edit myself with my voice and face being all me... It's odd. So mixed feeling about that.
I have a few friends who seem to be wanting to make videos at around this same time though too - so good luck to them, I'm sure we'll stay in touch because of it and stuff. It's kinda cool. But as I say, for me it's all about the writing, the writing is the important part, the videos are just a bit of fun. So I thank you all dearly for reading. I think I get around 30 views on and off, on average, on each of these posts, which is three times more than I even expected / wished for. So you're all a bit weird to be honest, but thanks-a-plenty. Ciao for now!
Wednesday, 3 April 2013
30 Minute Thoughts Day 4
I will have to admit at this early point that I'm feeling rather unstable. No need for concern or anything, it's a perfect mood for me to be creative and work on something with a little more depth, or to come up with something a little more dark for my horror than I would normally write. By unstable I kind of just mean that I'm not sure what mood I'm in, it's all a little bit odd off odd something like that. It's just me, I say as I give a mental shrug. I really have no explanation for it - but I'm fairly certain everyone must go through these strange little moods. I'd like to think I'm not the only one anyway. But yeah - that's a quallifier for anything I say in the next 26 minutes that might be slightly odd or dark or whatnot. Though that being said I'm likely to lighten up as my thoughts spring from idea to idea - so who knows what might happen? Ehh... Not me, that's for sure.
I'm answering my own rhetorical questions - good start!
I'll give somewhat of a reason why I decided to be in this mood and delve so far into my brain. I've been watching Black Mirror, all three episodes. They're on 4oD at the moment, written by Charlie Brooker and they're pretty awesome. The first two are especially annoying cause they're the kind of thing I'd love to be able to write myself - so I see them and I'm all like 'well I'm never gonna do something that awesome' - But that does seem to be what a lot of people think. So far most of my stuff has been liked more than I think it is good.
Being a writer kind of has two contrasting ideas in this perspective - on the one hand, you're writing what you want to read, and when you have a memory as awful as mine that becomes quite cool because every couple of months you can re-read your own shit like: 'Oooh! I wonder what will happen next.' - and you kind of enjoy your own work. But there's also the repetition, especially after you've spent a long period of time actually writing the piece where your enthusiasm for the story wanes and you really start to lack confidence in that it's a remotely good story. Which gives you a lift when people say they really like it - because to you, it really isn't half as good as the rest of the stuff out there.
But... I like to think I'm pretty good at it and I want to try to get one of my new stories done, really so I might have a huge session on beasting one of my stories, if only to get the first draft done - because then comes the tedious and equally fun editing process, which is more than half the work of a good writing.
I suppose I should be in a good mood with my writing though, one of my worse poems got chosen in 10th place today in a competition of over 500 entries. So that's not half bad as a position to come. This was on one of my writing websites, so it was judged by an amateur - but that's still okay, I think. To be fair when I ask for feedback most people tell me they can't give their thoughts because they don't know anything about writing - but that's really not the point. The most important feedback you get is from people who haven't got a clue about the process or whatever, because they make the majority of your readers, and if someone without any know-how can tell you something is off about one of your pieces - then something is bloody well off with one of your pieces, and that is invaluable information.
I guess this isn't the most interesting blog to read of these 30 minute thoughts, and for that I appologise, but I did qualify the reason at the start, so try not to let it put you off. The end product I've been brain storming and I have some nice ideas. Though it turns into one of those things within a thing at the point where on the video I talk about ideas for the video and so on. How weird. People have been wrongly calling things-within-a-thing situations something '-ception' recently just because of the balls movie Inception, that was so simple they ruined the film with extra dialogue explaining what was going on, and yet people still don't know what the word inception actually means? How little attention to people have to pay to a movie before shit like this becomes popular? It's like all the morons who bought fish to flush down the toilet after watching Finding Nemo. What are you people thinking? There's no wonder Hollywood films are so dumbed down and vague for the mass majority audience to like as oppose to being silling to be a skilled and appreciateive movie that would probably make less money but they can be proud of. Like making the Hobbit - which I have read and could be made into one hour and a half movies - dragging it out for 9 fucking hours. If that's not just utter crap money making bollocks, I don't know what is.
It just annoys me that gaming and film and all the rest - why can't people just enjoy their work for their work rather than the money margin. When you think about it, people will still go to watch movies just as much, but the money would be more spread out and the movies would be on a higher standard. I don't really know what I'm suggesting they do - as if I'm suggesting everything. I just wish people realised it's their own stupidity that makes things so crap. If you buy something or put money into something, the company will do more of the same thing, rather than coming up with something new and taking more risks. Don't fund these bell-ends, it's not worth it.
Also, don't buy anything to do with music where over 90% of the profits goes to the actual artist. Fuck the music industry, people claim they do good for musicians, but all they really do is tell us what we want to hear and make sure that only select artists - irrelevant of the skill - get paid lower than minimum wage for their album sales. The only way musicians really make money is gigging. So the music industry is absolutely useless. We need more pirates, piracy helps bands. You get a hold of their music for free, realise you love it and then go and spend loads of money watching them live and on merch. But you make me pay to listen to music? I'm not gonna hear it, I remain ignorant and they get no money.
Sure that sounds like it's just me... but there is a hell of a lot of people who are happy to pirate out there, I'm willing to bet that over 50% of people who go to band's gigs own their music illegally. Are the bands in the sell-out gig suffering from that loss? Clearly not.
Just think it through.
I like the way this is turned into an artistic rant of points that I haven't really researched so at a later date will find out I'm completely wrong and appologise. But fuck it, this is my train of thought at the moment, and there's really not really any other forum I get this kind of crap off my chest. Though it's not really on my chest in the first place and it's more the kind of balls you tend to hear in a pub from the overly boisterous friend who only pipes up after his 4th pint just to disagree with people. I hope I'm not that guy... I like to make jokes for the first 3 pints at least. Ah well.
The pub is an awesome place for voicing anything you like, only the best philosophy in the world comes about from a pub - conversation. Although it kind of needs to be informed slightly, two people who know nothing of philosophical history are mroe likely talking of ideas that are pretty standard and thinking it's more meaningful. That's one of the issues with philosophy - there are a lot of people who think it's just common sense dressed up. But it is only common sense because philosophy made it common sense. This shit wasn't common knowledge until philosophers pointed it out, wrote a book and had a slow uptake on their book until a hundred years after they were dead. That's why philosophy cannot die, what we're coming up with today, is the common sense of a hundred years time.
Perhaps I'm overstepping my mark by saying I'm a part of this. And yes, I'm well aware I sound like I think I'm cleverer than I am. But that's not the point. The point is that at least I am thinking - whether I'm a dick for doing it or not. We just need people to savvy up and eventually, if everything happens in these kinds of ways - maybe there'll be a world I'm much more happy to live in. Because that's essentially what it's all about. I'm me, and therefore the most important person in my life and therefore I want the world to revolve around me. Yes, that sounds perfectly legit.
(For all the people that don't know me very well, that last paragraph was generally satirical, I'm taking the piss out of myself in a characterised way, a kind of reputation that I build for myself accidentally. It wasn't serious. Thanks for reading - by the way. Much appreciate your attention.)
So this morning I was running out of food and couldn't be bothered with soup - so I actually had a spaghetti and meatballs for my breakfast - how crazy is that? I'm probably not gonna be eating much for the rest of today where I be all in the same mood as I have done throughout this and tomorrow I'll likely be really happy and stuff and look back on this post like: 'What a dick!' Ciao for now.
I'm answering my own rhetorical questions - good start!
I'll give somewhat of a reason why I decided to be in this mood and delve so far into my brain. I've been watching Black Mirror, all three episodes. They're on 4oD at the moment, written by Charlie Brooker and they're pretty awesome. The first two are especially annoying cause they're the kind of thing I'd love to be able to write myself - so I see them and I'm all like 'well I'm never gonna do something that awesome' - But that does seem to be what a lot of people think. So far most of my stuff has been liked more than I think it is good.
Being a writer kind of has two contrasting ideas in this perspective - on the one hand, you're writing what you want to read, and when you have a memory as awful as mine that becomes quite cool because every couple of months you can re-read your own shit like: 'Oooh! I wonder what will happen next.' - and you kind of enjoy your own work. But there's also the repetition, especially after you've spent a long period of time actually writing the piece where your enthusiasm for the story wanes and you really start to lack confidence in that it's a remotely good story. Which gives you a lift when people say they really like it - because to you, it really isn't half as good as the rest of the stuff out there.
But... I like to think I'm pretty good at it and I want to try to get one of my new stories done, really so I might have a huge session on beasting one of my stories, if only to get the first draft done - because then comes the tedious and equally fun editing process, which is more than half the work of a good writing.
I suppose I should be in a good mood with my writing though, one of my worse poems got chosen in 10th place today in a competition of over 500 entries. So that's not half bad as a position to come. This was on one of my writing websites, so it was judged by an amateur - but that's still okay, I think. To be fair when I ask for feedback most people tell me they can't give their thoughts because they don't know anything about writing - but that's really not the point. The most important feedback you get is from people who haven't got a clue about the process or whatever, because they make the majority of your readers, and if someone without any know-how can tell you something is off about one of your pieces - then something is bloody well off with one of your pieces, and that is invaluable information.
I guess this isn't the most interesting blog to read of these 30 minute thoughts, and for that I appologise, but I did qualify the reason at the start, so try not to let it put you off. The end product I've been brain storming and I have some nice ideas. Though it turns into one of those things within a thing at the point where on the video I talk about ideas for the video and so on. How weird. People have been wrongly calling things-within-a-thing situations something '-ception' recently just because of the balls movie Inception, that was so simple they ruined the film with extra dialogue explaining what was going on, and yet people still don't know what the word inception actually means? How little attention to people have to pay to a movie before shit like this becomes popular? It's like all the morons who bought fish to flush down the toilet after watching Finding Nemo. What are you people thinking? There's no wonder Hollywood films are so dumbed down and vague for the mass majority audience to like as oppose to being silling to be a skilled and appreciateive movie that would probably make less money but they can be proud of. Like making the Hobbit - which I have read and could be made into one hour and a half movies - dragging it out for 9 fucking hours. If that's not just utter crap money making bollocks, I don't know what is.
It just annoys me that gaming and film and all the rest - why can't people just enjoy their work for their work rather than the money margin. When you think about it, people will still go to watch movies just as much, but the money would be more spread out and the movies would be on a higher standard. I don't really know what I'm suggesting they do - as if I'm suggesting everything. I just wish people realised it's their own stupidity that makes things so crap. If you buy something or put money into something, the company will do more of the same thing, rather than coming up with something new and taking more risks. Don't fund these bell-ends, it's not worth it.
Also, don't buy anything to do with music where over 90% of the profits goes to the actual artist. Fuck the music industry, people claim they do good for musicians, but all they really do is tell us what we want to hear and make sure that only select artists - irrelevant of the skill - get paid lower than minimum wage for their album sales. The only way musicians really make money is gigging. So the music industry is absolutely useless. We need more pirates, piracy helps bands. You get a hold of their music for free, realise you love it and then go and spend loads of money watching them live and on merch. But you make me pay to listen to music? I'm not gonna hear it, I remain ignorant and they get no money.
Sure that sounds like it's just me... but there is a hell of a lot of people who are happy to pirate out there, I'm willing to bet that over 50% of people who go to band's gigs own their music illegally. Are the bands in the sell-out gig suffering from that loss? Clearly not.
Just think it through.
I like the way this is turned into an artistic rant of points that I haven't really researched so at a later date will find out I'm completely wrong and appologise. But fuck it, this is my train of thought at the moment, and there's really not really any other forum I get this kind of crap off my chest. Though it's not really on my chest in the first place and it's more the kind of balls you tend to hear in a pub from the overly boisterous friend who only pipes up after his 4th pint just to disagree with people. I hope I'm not that guy... I like to make jokes for the first 3 pints at least. Ah well.
The pub is an awesome place for voicing anything you like, only the best philosophy in the world comes about from a pub - conversation. Although it kind of needs to be informed slightly, two people who know nothing of philosophical history are mroe likely talking of ideas that are pretty standard and thinking it's more meaningful. That's one of the issues with philosophy - there are a lot of people who think it's just common sense dressed up. But it is only common sense because philosophy made it common sense. This shit wasn't common knowledge until philosophers pointed it out, wrote a book and had a slow uptake on their book until a hundred years after they were dead. That's why philosophy cannot die, what we're coming up with today, is the common sense of a hundred years time.
Perhaps I'm overstepping my mark by saying I'm a part of this. And yes, I'm well aware I sound like I think I'm cleverer than I am. But that's not the point. The point is that at least I am thinking - whether I'm a dick for doing it or not. We just need people to savvy up and eventually, if everything happens in these kinds of ways - maybe there'll be a world I'm much more happy to live in. Because that's essentially what it's all about. I'm me, and therefore the most important person in my life and therefore I want the world to revolve around me. Yes, that sounds perfectly legit.
(For all the people that don't know me very well, that last paragraph was generally satirical, I'm taking the piss out of myself in a characterised way, a kind of reputation that I build for myself accidentally. It wasn't serious. Thanks for reading - by the way. Much appreciate your attention.)
So this morning I was running out of food and couldn't be bothered with soup - so I actually had a spaghetti and meatballs for my breakfast - how crazy is that? I'm probably not gonna be eating much for the rest of today where I be all in the same mood as I have done throughout this and tomorrow I'll likely be really happy and stuff and look back on this post like: 'What a dick!' Ciao for now.
Tuesday, 2 April 2013
30 Minute Thoughts Day 3
So I just finished talking to people on Facebook because I realised I had to get this done. Sam, being the great friend he is (sarcasm marks inserted around there) decides to try and correpy my thoughts before I'm about to write them down. Luckily now I'm writing you'd be surprised how much everything you remember just flies away from your mind and I actually don't know what I was just talking about. I remember talking about dragons and penis warriors. I think something to do with discussing trust in realtionships or some other thing spouted from a rant I had about people. I have so many rants about people - it's hard to keep up really. I'm supposed to be living with Sam in a few years, or at least we've both mentioned it and having considered it a viable option - and this would be kind of cool. Hopefull by then I'll have some kind of experience on youtube from random vlogs - if this experiment thing is actually sucessful.
Still, have you met Sam? He's a bit of a bell-piece, just going out of his way to corrupt my thoughts - If we weren't a hivemind together, well I'd give him the old one two buckle my shoe. I don't even know what that means, but I am in a bit of an odd mood today. Which is interesting because one thing I didn't consider with these thought blog things - I really need to come up with a name for these things - they sort of map my day to day moods. Like yesterday I was oddly angry, today I'm a bit bizzare and the first day I was quite withdrawn and reflective. I do change more than I thought from day to day, already and it's only day 3. Perhaps it'll grow more and everyone is actually like this all the time. Maybe I've found a method of testing how people's emotional cycle works. If I get like 100 men and women to do this I might find some kind of correlation and have more proof to show people exactly why men and women are essentially the same. Because they are.
Still, I think Sam and I need more people for our hivemind. But that's not as simple as just deciding people are cool - so it's likely forever a 2 man hivemind. Like, Unitologists except with no necromorphs or crazy shitty religious ideas. Not all religious ideas are shitty... but Unitology - wow, that's more kooky than Scientology or Mormonism, and they're just batshit insane. I'm The Batman.
For some strange reason I just said Batman and pictured a giant hamster in a batman mask just fucking shit up. I don't think today is a good day to work on my horror story, I don't need it to be too surreal. Though I guess this isn't that strange, just a bit random.
'Random' is a phrase that went out of style, why do people not say random so much anymore. Like everything a few years ago was pants... why is pants no longer a bad thing? Why was it even a bad thing in the first place. 'Gay' is considered a bad thing - but when people say that they sort of use it in a word context not a meaningful context. It used to mean happy, and now it means camp kind of homosexuality and very now it's more like just a word people use in synonymous with bad. I'm starting to think we should just drop the word from the English language or give it a new meaning entirely, it's a lost cause of a word.
My shoulder just cracked and it really hurt, so I did have to stop writing for a second there. Does that mean I'm disqualified? Maybe I should look back at the word count for these and see how many WPM i can type. Though I guess it's a bit strange because it's directly out of my head and so there's a constant stream of words I can type - actually, how do they do those tests? Is it like this or do they give you something specifict to try and copy. i'm pretty sure copying would be much harder, or at least slower. But I don't think my WPM is that high, or very low. I's probably quite average - whatever that is. But I think too much about the content of my words and sentences when I'm trying to write something properly, like that's why my exams are always realy short and stuff when people end up writing reams of pages. Apparently my awesome lecturer John once wrote something like 17 pages in an hour on one question. I don't even know how that's possible. I mean obviously we have less practice with free hand because everything now is word-processed, but still ,17 pages is like crazy shit. I was gonna work out the maths than but that would take too long and I need to keep typing. So yeah, I'm trying to remember things but I can't really seem to remember much at the moment.
I do have a small go-to memory, actually from my childhood where I went to Flambards (the best day of the week) and I was with my friend Olly, who I was like inseperable with when we were tiny little things. But we went on this huge theme park ride that was like spinning around horizontally, and going up really high and he dropped his skittles and phone and one of my shoes fell off or something and there were sheep and it was raining on our faces. I don't know why, it's just a memory that seems to stick with me. But it was quite funny. We were shouting at the phone that fell and stuff, though now I'm wittier I realised we should have waited til the skittles scattered (awesome alliteration) and shouted: "taste the rainbow!" - that would have been far more hilarious, I'm sure you'll agree.
It's strange thinking who your best friends used to be actually and their relationship with you now. I do wonder what I'll think of my current closest friedns in like 10 years. Because proximity is the hard part and I go back to Cornwall every now and then so I still get to see people I used to talk to all the time. But when we all move away - who do you keep in touch with? Probably nobody. I'll be a recluse - but my writing will be legendary!
Chemical castration would probably have a benefit to anyone's career prospects, too. Because it takes away any true desire to be a normal aggressive or horny person - and you can channel shit into your work. Why would that be a bad thing? It's like the whole thing on Troy where the prophetess woman is talking to Achilles and is like: 'You can go home and have a family and be remembered by your grandkids but be happy, or you can go to war and die but be rememberd for thousands of years' and he's all like mysterious - but of course he goes to war. We have a low life expectancy - so the only way to become immortal is to be remembered. Change the God-damn world (because God did damn it from the word go). If you have to trade in your fertility to be remembered for generations... Yeah, I probably would. Could always quickly adopt someone to remember you as 'grandparent' anyway.
Notice I naturally opted for the single farther situation there with singular grandparent. Just goes to show my level of optimism for being liked or having good relationships. :P
I don't think it'd be too bad. I mean babies are annoying and I generally dislike children - mostly because they're stupid, have you ever met a child? It's almost like they haven't learned anything yet! But still, after they stop being annoying you could handle it on your own surely. Probably a lot easier with someone else - but why take the easy path. I feel like being born not in the 3rd world countires kind of was like us picking easy mode on the start up screen. People in the first world always blood complain about hating their life and hardships - but really, it's only difficult if you make it difficult.
When you stop to observe your surroundings and life as a whole from a worldly intellectual perspective with some objectivism thrown in there... it's a pretty easy life, not too much is really expected of you, and it's pretty amazing that it exists in the first place. Everything is amazing... but nobody is happy. That's a shame I think, I fall into the same trap as everyone else, but I like to think I'm well aware deep down, that this is all pretty good, and fun and managable, it's an exciting ride and you're in it. Just gotta look at things from truths and not pretenses. Your life isn't a TV show, it's far more exciting, and you relate with the main character more than any character that could exist.
Okay, so maybe that last bit was a little cheesy - but my point still stands, bitches. Bloody hell is 30 minutes up yet? I figured I've been going for hours. Ack! Oh, that's the alarm... Awesome. Okay. Well Ciao for now, bitches!
Still, have you met Sam? He's a bit of a bell-piece, just going out of his way to corrupt my thoughts - If we weren't a hivemind together, well I'd give him the old one two buckle my shoe. I don't even know what that means, but I am in a bit of an odd mood today. Which is interesting because one thing I didn't consider with these thought blog things - I really need to come up with a name for these things - they sort of map my day to day moods. Like yesterday I was oddly angry, today I'm a bit bizzare and the first day I was quite withdrawn and reflective. I do change more than I thought from day to day, already and it's only day 3. Perhaps it'll grow more and everyone is actually like this all the time. Maybe I've found a method of testing how people's emotional cycle works. If I get like 100 men and women to do this I might find some kind of correlation and have more proof to show people exactly why men and women are essentially the same. Because they are.
Still, I think Sam and I need more people for our hivemind. But that's not as simple as just deciding people are cool - so it's likely forever a 2 man hivemind. Like, Unitologists except with no necromorphs or crazy shitty religious ideas. Not all religious ideas are shitty... but Unitology - wow, that's more kooky than Scientology or Mormonism, and they're just batshit insane. I'm The Batman.
For some strange reason I just said Batman and pictured a giant hamster in a batman mask just fucking shit up. I don't think today is a good day to work on my horror story, I don't need it to be too surreal. Though I guess this isn't that strange, just a bit random.
'Random' is a phrase that went out of style, why do people not say random so much anymore. Like everything a few years ago was pants... why is pants no longer a bad thing? Why was it even a bad thing in the first place. 'Gay' is considered a bad thing - but when people say that they sort of use it in a word context not a meaningful context. It used to mean happy, and now it means camp kind of homosexuality and very now it's more like just a word people use in synonymous with bad. I'm starting to think we should just drop the word from the English language or give it a new meaning entirely, it's a lost cause of a word.
My shoulder just cracked and it really hurt, so I did have to stop writing for a second there. Does that mean I'm disqualified? Maybe I should look back at the word count for these and see how many WPM i can type. Though I guess it's a bit strange because it's directly out of my head and so there's a constant stream of words I can type - actually, how do they do those tests? Is it like this or do they give you something specifict to try and copy. i'm pretty sure copying would be much harder, or at least slower. But I don't think my WPM is that high, or very low. I's probably quite average - whatever that is. But I think too much about the content of my words and sentences when I'm trying to write something properly, like that's why my exams are always realy short and stuff when people end up writing reams of pages. Apparently my awesome lecturer John once wrote something like 17 pages in an hour on one question. I don't even know how that's possible. I mean obviously we have less practice with free hand because everything now is word-processed, but still ,17 pages is like crazy shit. I was gonna work out the maths than but that would take too long and I need to keep typing. So yeah, I'm trying to remember things but I can't really seem to remember much at the moment.
I do have a small go-to memory, actually from my childhood where I went to Flambards (the best day of the week) and I was with my friend Olly, who I was like inseperable with when we were tiny little things. But we went on this huge theme park ride that was like spinning around horizontally, and going up really high and he dropped his skittles and phone and one of my shoes fell off or something and there were sheep and it was raining on our faces. I don't know why, it's just a memory that seems to stick with me. But it was quite funny. We were shouting at the phone that fell and stuff, though now I'm wittier I realised we should have waited til the skittles scattered (awesome alliteration) and shouted: "taste the rainbow!" - that would have been far more hilarious, I'm sure you'll agree.
It's strange thinking who your best friends used to be actually and their relationship with you now. I do wonder what I'll think of my current closest friedns in like 10 years. Because proximity is the hard part and I go back to Cornwall every now and then so I still get to see people I used to talk to all the time. But when we all move away - who do you keep in touch with? Probably nobody. I'll be a recluse - but my writing will be legendary!
Chemical castration would probably have a benefit to anyone's career prospects, too. Because it takes away any true desire to be a normal aggressive or horny person - and you can channel shit into your work. Why would that be a bad thing? It's like the whole thing on Troy where the prophetess woman is talking to Achilles and is like: 'You can go home and have a family and be remembered by your grandkids but be happy, or you can go to war and die but be rememberd for thousands of years' and he's all like mysterious - but of course he goes to war. We have a low life expectancy - so the only way to become immortal is to be remembered. Change the God-damn world (because God did damn it from the word go). If you have to trade in your fertility to be remembered for generations... Yeah, I probably would. Could always quickly adopt someone to remember you as 'grandparent' anyway.
Notice I naturally opted for the single farther situation there with singular grandparent. Just goes to show my level of optimism for being liked or having good relationships. :P
I don't think it'd be too bad. I mean babies are annoying and I generally dislike children - mostly because they're stupid, have you ever met a child? It's almost like they haven't learned anything yet! But still, after they stop being annoying you could handle it on your own surely. Probably a lot easier with someone else - but why take the easy path. I feel like being born not in the 3rd world countires kind of was like us picking easy mode on the start up screen. People in the first world always blood complain about hating their life and hardships - but really, it's only difficult if you make it difficult.
When you stop to observe your surroundings and life as a whole from a worldly intellectual perspective with some objectivism thrown in there... it's a pretty easy life, not too much is really expected of you, and it's pretty amazing that it exists in the first place. Everything is amazing... but nobody is happy. That's a shame I think, I fall into the same trap as everyone else, but I like to think I'm well aware deep down, that this is all pretty good, and fun and managable, it's an exciting ride and you're in it. Just gotta look at things from truths and not pretenses. Your life isn't a TV show, it's far more exciting, and you relate with the main character more than any character that could exist.
Okay, so maybe that last bit was a little cheesy - but my point still stands, bitches. Bloody hell is 30 minutes up yet? I figured I've been going for hours. Ack! Oh, that's the alarm... Awesome. Okay. Well Ciao for now, bitches!
Monday, 1 April 2013
30 Minute Thoughts Day 2
Okay, this is day two of this little experiment thingy. Shit, panic. Um, right I do agree with random consensus yesterday that the first 30 min thoughts (which I was considering being a pilot and having this as official number 1 but then realised I couldn't be bothered with that :D) was a little bit tame. Like, there wasn't much offensiveness or sex as they might have been expecting - which like 3 or 4 people were expecting. I'm starting to think these people don't know me at all.
But actually it's a fair thought that it wasn't so controversial, because what you have to remember is this isn't my actual inner thoughts it's me forcing my self to write continiously... and so that means that I'm constantly panicing of what to say next, my thoughts go quicker than I can type so it's really whatever comes to my mind when forced. And actually, as much as people like to think I am racist or sexist or generally offensive, either because I am Cornish or you've just spent time with me, well I can't say it's genuine as much as a sense of humour. Which I'm sorry to disappoint. Still, what is also important to bear in mind is purely that this is a one sided conversation - there is nothing to discuss, the feedback is not immediate. So there's nothing to say about offensiveness or sex. I mean when something like sex is discussed it's because you feed off the other person or are sharing your thoughts / concerns / funny stories or whatever... but here? I have nothing to go by. I could tell you the story of how I once had sex with a wire around my neck, standing on my head on a skateboard on a swing - but that story just isn't true.
Thing being I can't really figure out hilarious stories around that area to a general thoughts type setting - and at the moment I kind of am really trying to think of something. Meh. I get a little annoied at the whole idea that we should be going out and dipping our wick every other day and stuff - and the assumption that if you don't talk about it it's not happening. Turns out there is such a thing as descrecion . Just because I don't talk about it... y'know. I had a friend the other day tell me how I should 'go out more to stick my dick in girls' and basically - no. Because I go out more than that person anyway, and I kind of have fun with friends, y'know friendship? Despite the assumptions he was making about me. Silly naieve boy. There is a hope problem with people not knowing there is such a thing as emotional intelligence - and I look down on every person doing a science degree from the word go because they think they're clever, but without emotional intelligence, you lack the kind of worldly common sense that makes you any more than a bloody calculator type information spitting thing. Then there's the people who I actually meet and show they're not like that. But still, I'll refrain from my usual philosophy rant - just putting in that if you want to take the piss out of someone who does philosophy, you are basically a moron by emotional intelligence definition. So have fun with that.
Kind of is the same point of people's lacking sense. I did have a point I was going to make about people making assumptions about my life, but I've totally forgot. Still I'm always glad when certain people stop talking to me, because sometimes it's an effort to have to be around them. It's the whole friendship control thing again - but nothing annoys me more (that's a lie, a lot of stuff annoys me) than people who assume they know you or assume that the way they live their life is the correct way - anyone you can't understand is weird and anything you don't see happen doesn't happen at all. Please open your god-damn mind. I admit my mind is all I have, but I like to expect a certain amount of other people to use theirs properly - and by a certain amount I mean 100%. I probably can't expect that of some people in the population like the Jeremy Kyle type people of society, but I am blessed with not having to know them. So I'm okay with this.
Starving Africans I guess I'll let them off too. I mean they have other things to worry about that application of real knowledge. Although if they were a little bit more savvy about biology - perhaps it'd significantly reduce the spread of AIDs and save some lives. Rapists, I dislike rapists - even if you think there's a reason for it.
I guess what makes sense as well, going back to my thing about not having much of the thoughts about sex. Something I've never been able to fathom is rape, because the pleasure from sex is such a little thing - how is it possible to crave or desire that feeling so much to physically ruin someone's entire life up, traumatize and destroy people's self-worth and confidence. It's like they haven't even thought it through - the cunts. haha, I like the idea I said how tame I was, as if I'm going to be controversial - but it turns out I just dislike rapists. I don't think that's much of a controversial point. Though pretty much all other things can be justified in morality I figured out last year. You name an act aside from peadophillia or rape (and peadophillia is a kind of rape anyway) and it can be justified, given that some can only be justified by situational points. But in no situation could you ever really justify rape. Which I should probably stop talking about... Might be giving someone an uncomfortable read. Sorry about that.
Anyway, fuck I'm thirsty - should have got a drink before I started this. But yeah, not doing too much today, just been sitting around in my pants and eating sausage rolls. Which isn't too bad a way to spend some time. Might crack open the rum later and write some more of my horror story. But I shouldn;t bother planning shit cause I never reall do it. Plans tend to change... But meh, Game of Thrones is on tonight which U'm uber excited about cause I've waited a fucking long time, as has everyone else. But I'm not really sure what to think about it, I rewatched the previous seasons and it's not like there is loads of questions, just lots of events that you're looking forward to continuing. And I have to say that aside from Tyrion Lannister, I'm backing John Snow - as conventional as it is, I think he has a long way to go.
There's been a good few TV series on lately, but nothing I've been overly impressed with aside from Utopia - which doesn't seem like it'll be good but it was bloody well amazing, the acting and the artistry and the writing, I just have to give it both thumbs up to watch. I was getting pissed off with The Voice earlier because you could make that an hour long show and just show more of the contestants but instead they make it out to be the most epic thing ever - just like X Factor and the other one. When I kind of like The Voice because it's actually a judge of talent rather than the other bollocks which is all about the TV show and making money from being characters and shit. So to build it up with all the crap intros and have interviews between every act spinning some shit story that has nothing to do with singing and then some more promos of how wacking the Will.I.Am is when he just wasn't accepted in his own country so somehow he thinks he fits in here. And you just get crappy things with them explaining the premise of the show like 900 times. It's an hour and a half. There is only 30 minutes of good stuff in it. Honestly, what a pile of wabble-cox.
I don't even know what that meant, but y'know how it is in this day and age. I think I'm kind of angry today - I have no real reason to be angry - but maybe I should leave the house tomorrow or something, I've spent almost 4 days in solitude now and that's probably enough before I should do something. Might as Woody for a drink. Or, haha, I might make Woody read this entire post just so in the last three minutes of writing I'm asking if he wants to go for a drink soon. Hey Woody (the rest of you can ignore this bit. I say 'the rest' as if there's more than 2 people got this far) Hey Woody, fancy going for a drink tomorrow? Or perhaps Wednesday?
Well wasn't that exciting. I was right though, when I typed that I had 3 minutes left I looked at the clock and there was like 2 minutes 47 seconds left which means I should wrap this up which I'm kind happy about because I'm needlessly angry my arms are starting to hurt from this constant typing and I'm generally really thirsty. So, by the way I've kind of coined my own farewell for my posts and stuff where I just say 'Ciao for now' because I think it sounds so smug and dickish, it's playful and great. So yeah, I'll probably be putting that at the end of all of these little posts, and try to write less about actually writing too - because it takes up valuable bull-shit time. Anyway. Ciao for now!
But actually it's a fair thought that it wasn't so controversial, because what you have to remember is this isn't my actual inner thoughts it's me forcing my self to write continiously... and so that means that I'm constantly panicing of what to say next, my thoughts go quicker than I can type so it's really whatever comes to my mind when forced. And actually, as much as people like to think I am racist or sexist or generally offensive, either because I am Cornish or you've just spent time with me, well I can't say it's genuine as much as a sense of humour. Which I'm sorry to disappoint. Still, what is also important to bear in mind is purely that this is a one sided conversation - there is nothing to discuss, the feedback is not immediate. So there's nothing to say about offensiveness or sex. I mean when something like sex is discussed it's because you feed off the other person or are sharing your thoughts / concerns / funny stories or whatever... but here? I have nothing to go by. I could tell you the story of how I once had sex with a wire around my neck, standing on my head on a skateboard on a swing - but that story just isn't true.
Thing being I can't really figure out hilarious stories around that area to a general thoughts type setting - and at the moment I kind of am really trying to think of something. Meh. I get a little annoied at the whole idea that we should be going out and dipping our wick every other day and stuff - and the assumption that if you don't talk about it it's not happening. Turns out there is such a thing as descrecion . Just because I don't talk about it... y'know. I had a friend the other day tell me how I should 'go out more to stick my dick in girls' and basically - no. Because I go out more than that person anyway, and I kind of have fun with friends, y'know friendship? Despite the assumptions he was making about me. Silly naieve boy. There is a hope problem with people not knowing there is such a thing as emotional intelligence - and I look down on every person doing a science degree from the word go because they think they're clever, but without emotional intelligence, you lack the kind of worldly common sense that makes you any more than a bloody calculator type information spitting thing. Then there's the people who I actually meet and show they're not like that. But still, I'll refrain from my usual philosophy rant - just putting in that if you want to take the piss out of someone who does philosophy, you are basically a moron by emotional intelligence definition. So have fun with that.
Kind of is the same point of people's lacking sense. I did have a point I was going to make about people making assumptions about my life, but I've totally forgot. Still I'm always glad when certain people stop talking to me, because sometimes it's an effort to have to be around them. It's the whole friendship control thing again - but nothing annoys me more (that's a lie, a lot of stuff annoys me) than people who assume they know you or assume that the way they live their life is the correct way - anyone you can't understand is weird and anything you don't see happen doesn't happen at all. Please open your god-damn mind. I admit my mind is all I have, but I like to expect a certain amount of other people to use theirs properly - and by a certain amount I mean 100%. I probably can't expect that of some people in the population like the Jeremy Kyle type people of society, but I am blessed with not having to know them. So I'm okay with this.
Starving Africans I guess I'll let them off too. I mean they have other things to worry about that application of real knowledge. Although if they were a little bit more savvy about biology - perhaps it'd significantly reduce the spread of AIDs and save some lives. Rapists, I dislike rapists - even if you think there's a reason for it.
I guess what makes sense as well, going back to my thing about not having much of the thoughts about sex. Something I've never been able to fathom is rape, because the pleasure from sex is such a little thing - how is it possible to crave or desire that feeling so much to physically ruin someone's entire life up, traumatize and destroy people's self-worth and confidence. It's like they haven't even thought it through - the cunts. haha, I like the idea I said how tame I was, as if I'm going to be controversial - but it turns out I just dislike rapists. I don't think that's much of a controversial point. Though pretty much all other things can be justified in morality I figured out last year. You name an act aside from peadophillia or rape (and peadophillia is a kind of rape anyway) and it can be justified, given that some can only be justified by situational points. But in no situation could you ever really justify rape. Which I should probably stop talking about... Might be giving someone an uncomfortable read. Sorry about that.
Anyway, fuck I'm thirsty - should have got a drink before I started this. But yeah, not doing too much today, just been sitting around in my pants and eating sausage rolls. Which isn't too bad a way to spend some time. Might crack open the rum later and write some more of my horror story. But I shouldn;t bother planning shit cause I never reall do it. Plans tend to change... But meh, Game of Thrones is on tonight which U'm uber excited about cause I've waited a fucking long time, as has everyone else. But I'm not really sure what to think about it, I rewatched the previous seasons and it's not like there is loads of questions, just lots of events that you're looking forward to continuing. And I have to say that aside from Tyrion Lannister, I'm backing John Snow - as conventional as it is, I think he has a long way to go.
There's been a good few TV series on lately, but nothing I've been overly impressed with aside from Utopia - which doesn't seem like it'll be good but it was bloody well amazing, the acting and the artistry and the writing, I just have to give it both thumbs up to watch. I was getting pissed off with The Voice earlier because you could make that an hour long show and just show more of the contestants but instead they make it out to be the most epic thing ever - just like X Factor and the other one. When I kind of like The Voice because it's actually a judge of talent rather than the other bollocks which is all about the TV show and making money from being characters and shit. So to build it up with all the crap intros and have interviews between every act spinning some shit story that has nothing to do with singing and then some more promos of how wacking the Will.I.Am is when he just wasn't accepted in his own country so somehow he thinks he fits in here. And you just get crappy things with them explaining the premise of the show like 900 times. It's an hour and a half. There is only 30 minutes of good stuff in it. Honestly, what a pile of wabble-cox.
I don't even know what that meant, but y'know how it is in this day and age. I think I'm kind of angry today - I have no real reason to be angry - but maybe I should leave the house tomorrow or something, I've spent almost 4 days in solitude now and that's probably enough before I should do something. Might as Woody for a drink. Or, haha, I might make Woody read this entire post just so in the last three minutes of writing I'm asking if he wants to go for a drink soon. Hey Woody (the rest of you can ignore this bit. I say 'the rest' as if there's more than 2 people got this far) Hey Woody, fancy going for a drink tomorrow? Or perhaps Wednesday?
Well wasn't that exciting. I was right though, when I typed that I had 3 minutes left I looked at the clock and there was like 2 minutes 47 seconds left which means I should wrap this up which I'm kind happy about because I'm needlessly angry my arms are starting to hurt from this constant typing and I'm generally really thirsty. So, by the way I've kind of coined my own farewell for my posts and stuff where I just say 'Ciao for now' because I think it sounds so smug and dickish, it's playful and great. So yeah, I'll probably be putting that at the end of all of these little posts, and try to write less about actually writing too - because it takes up valuable bull-shit time. Anyway. Ciao for now!
30 Minute Thoughts #1
There will be minimal editing as I go and afterwards, so do bare in mind that it will be significantly quicker than 30 minutes to read. Because I tend to write a bit slower when I'm being critical of my spelling and grammar and such anyway. I hope this becomes interesting for someone, but it is mainly for my own little interesting benefit. I've already been going for a few minutes and written nothing though, so I should probably think of shit to write.
See at the moment I am quite into my horror, I started writing more of a horror story yesterday and the main idea in that is I actually wanna scare someone. I'm working on the premise that a true scare is something that lingers in the real world as well as just in reading, so delving into ideas I'm kinda scaring myself with it - but perhaps that's just my imagination. I have high hopes for it anyway. Of course I've told everyone of the main theme of the 10 short stories and all of the remaining ones are actually in progress, but because they're all happening at once, they'll all take quite a while to finish. I don't really put priorities, I go with whenever I feel like writing. I average about 400 words per day when I do work every day though. I have other little things like this that I do too, because I get these crazy ideas and just bloody well go for them.
I'm well aware this isn't so interesting so far, but it's much harder than I first expected, I'm hoping that I'll chill the fuck out as I'm going - it becomes much more informal and perhaps have some genuine feelings in there at some point. Though I will admit there are some things I'm really trying not to think about because I kind of have to write it if I say it, and it would be cheating to censor it afterwards.
I'm starting to regret doing this now because my thoughts are being pretty dumb and same-ish. Let's try to think of some kind of topic. I've finished my essays recently, wrote four thousand words on the causation of Hume and Kant and while that is a daunting thing at first is genuinely an interesting experience - not wanting to bore with the subject matter, but the actual fact is I enjoyed writing that. Most essays these days I really struggle through but after I was done with my procrastinating I finally got round to the research, because the essay was much longer than anything I've done before it was a new experience, so I kind of enjoyed that. It reminded me, kind of, the first essay I ever wrote where I think I must have been in year 9 or something because it was in History, I'm sure, and I never took history at GCSE, or if I did I don't remember. Anyway the essay was 1000 words and I remember telling my mum that I enjoyed writing it. I don't even know if I liked the subject matter but it was the first time in my life I was able to write (relatively) freely about a specific subject. I'm pretty sure it was crap, 'cause I hadn't learned to write essays back then - hell I still struggle with structure these days.
What is kind of bizarre thought is when I actually think back to those type of lessons when even back then I assumed I was cleverer than people around me, but now I think that he's a bit of a thick twat on the scale of things. Still it's not that I really regret anything from the past people I've been, it's just I'd like to have had hindsight for my entire past. I don't think much would have changed but I just know I'd have had more fun. With things like knowing how little power teachers had, I would have been able to feel a little more free than I felt, I perhaps wouldn't have been so quiet in general or whatever. Then you have my three years of A level, they were strange times, every single year felt so different with my friendship groups shifting about and my priorities at the time.
That's the thing though, when I actually look to the past all I really think of is education. Which is the damn good reason why I'm definitely stopping after university. I've been in education now for...what? I was 4 when I started so that makes it 17 ish years? That's a crazy amount of time! It wasn't until about 15-16 I actually got a life either. I barely left my own street until about 12-13 and then I played Warcraft for 2 very long years.
I say that as if it's a bad thing, but I still play a lot of games. Oh dear. I'm not entirely sure whether I'm able to put emote-icons in this little experiment of mine, it's hardly proper prose. But I did just giggle in my head at something or other. I've forgotten now. Anyway, I stopped playing WoW which took over from previous to that where I got home drank tea, ate biscuits and watched Cartoon Network for hours. So I don't know where the improvement happened. I sort of decided real friends were kind cool I guess. I'm fairly happy with the social life I've built, sometimes I feel I know too many people other times I feel quite alone. But I always have only a few friends that I can call close to me at any time. I'm in control, I think that's the important thing. Yeah... lets go with that.
I keep pressing the tab button to indent my paragraphs but forget that BlogSpot doesn't support that kind of indenting. I'm gonna have to add that after.
So this turned into a nut-shell history of Kyle Sweet at once point there. I think I've only got a little time left though so I don't wanna stop on a random story. Umm... Right. Perhaps I'll be in a better frame of mind if I do this in the future. This kind of crap flows out of me when I panic write stuff. Either that or I'll have a burst of things to write about before coming to a stop because I don't know how to word a sentence for how effective it is and then I just lie down on my bed for a while. I sort of live too much in my head, which is just because all my senses kind of suck. Like my taste is pretty cool, but I'm sure others have better and you can't really live by taste. My smell is awful, I can't smell most things people people seem to - sight I wear glasses and even that isn't perfect and hearing is just dulled out by my internal dialogue. There isn't much of a reference for touch, but if there was I'm sure mine would come up pretty low on the scale. There are plenty more senses that are never talked about but they don't matter - point is that I live inside my own head pretty much all the time,
It's a bit like Squall from Final Fantasy 8, where a few times the character say about him just falling back into his thoughts too much and not saying everything aloud - I guess I related to that a little bit. 8 was my favourite game to replay in the FF series so far, I didn't realise how awesome it was. And I see that characters as their correct teenage ages instead of really old cause I was young the first time. But yeah I kind of got mildly upset when i ended it rather than in awe of how awesome it is because I just wanted to play more of it.
There have been a few things that have gotten me a little upset or emotional recently, I think I must be maturing a little bit - or just come into a little strange time. Because I can't actually cry, but I almost can. My main things at the moment seem to be fear and emotions - which is a strange combination. I like stories that are connecting and emotional or just fucking dark. And I mean really dark, your dark is nothing compared to my dark, my friend! Har har! A little twisted I guess. Excuse me while I have a bit of drink.
Laavly stuff. It's a habit of mine now to get £3 meal deals from Tescos. Orange Lucozade, flaming hot Monster Much and a chicken and bacon wrap. It's just delish. And on that little bizzare note my 30 minutes are up. Thank you to anyone who made it this far and I might do another of these - if I do I'll be sure to make it more interesting. Feel free to give feedback on whether or not I should and I'll see you in the next blog post. :) Ciao for now!
Sunday, 31 March 2013
Experiment time!
So here is the plan. Following the crap pilot version of the 30 minute thoughts I did earlier today I came up with this fun little experiment that isn't really for anyone aside from me. I'd love to hear your thoughts on this experiment because I know it's mostly for me and I would love some of the end products to be as interesting as possible for your guys!
So the idea is that every day for a week I will be writing with no plan for 30 minutes straight into this space, this blog, this place. It's a sidestep from my main writing and general blog which can be found here: http://bringerofsweets.blogspot.co.uk/
At the end of the week I am going to go through all my writing and condense it into one edited, relevant and interesting thing and script that into a video-blog which I will be posting on YouTube and here. As I say, this is mainly a thing for me - But I really want others to be able to share in my experiment so do tell.
And that's basically it. Try and get some interesting topics from 30 minutes of just thinking aloud every day and then make a crammed erratic Vlog at the end of the week. Depending on the uptake I will continue to do it, perhaps take weekends off or something, and make a mini-series of thoughts over time. It's more a way to practice my editing and hone my ability to write every day even if I don't have anything to write about. It's a motivation task and just a general challenge.
So I'm gonna start it up and sort of make it up as I go along. Thanks for sharing this with me, and ciao for now!
So the idea is that every day for a week I will be writing with no plan for 30 minutes straight into this space, this blog, this place. It's a sidestep from my main writing and general blog which can be found here: http://bringerofsweets.blogspot.co.uk/
At the end of the week I am going to go through all my writing and condense it into one edited, relevant and interesting thing and script that into a video-blog which I will be posting on YouTube and here. As I say, this is mainly a thing for me - But I really want others to be able to share in my experiment so do tell.
And that's basically it. Try and get some interesting topics from 30 minutes of just thinking aloud every day and then make a crammed erratic Vlog at the end of the week. Depending on the uptake I will continue to do it, perhaps take weekends off or something, and make a mini-series of thoughts over time. It's more a way to practice my editing and hone my ability to write every day even if I don't have anything to write about. It's a motivation task and just a general challenge.
So I'm gonna start it up and sort of make it up as I go along. Thanks for sharing this with me, and ciao for now!
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